Fake it or show your ugly truth

Have you ever wonder are you the person who you suppose to be?
Or you might realize that you're just someone who you want to be?
This is something which is highly questionable!

Speaking of this, we might find lotsa excuses for ourselves. Sometimes I question myself, why can't I just be myself, why can't I say yes to simplicity instead of trying to match with others' pace?
At some point of time, I don't know who I really am. All I know is I have to strive to be a tougher bitch in order to get the things I want, and also so that people will stereotype you as a perfect person.
I hide my weaknesses. Or at some point of time, I tried to cover it by ranting about what I'm proud of myself.
I am really a demanding person, seriously demanding. Though at some point of time I feel that I don't deserve such good things. And it's human nature to find ways to alleviate all the shits that hinder their paths. It ended sometimes that I got screwed up by the stupid ideas which I thought that they were splendid one.

Have you ever realize how tiring it is in faking yourself?
I realized it.
And I'm glad, at least I can still take off the mask and be the 100% me in front when confronting some people in my life. I realized how nice and comfortable it is to be myself again.

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Lead me to the right way, please?

Alright... it has come to this. I've been away from blogspot for too long.

And I've been having misty mind for the past few days...
There are times when we need to make very tough decisions. And every decisions we made we'll afraid if a wrong one is being made. Sometimes we need to sacrifice, even if we are so unwilling to let go. But for the sake of everyone, we hope that we'll always do the right thing.

Doing so is not so that you'll stereotype me as a better person, but it's just that I feel guilty and I don't think this is the right thing to do.

I know God will always take good care of me, and make sure I take the right steps. =)

Tuesday, November 3, 2009