Things I don't get it

I jz dont get it why!!!

People who ask you to hang out, date or merely to hang out together but then ended up chose to ignore you completely then dump you for other friends. If this is what he planned, he shouldnt date you out in the first place! 

Trying to make you fall for him and ended up dump you aside? And feel proud when he found you being very pathetic in trying hard to attempt on a conversation wit him when he is bent on ignoring you?? Nah...not as easy as wat you thought!

Im not as simple as wat u thought. If you are not serious enough, then jz fuck off!

So i'll choose to move on, at least it is better than being ignored!

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

A pissed off holiday

So i jz finished my room cleaning. After one whole month, this is the 1st time i clean my room entirely. 

Look back at wat i did for this whole month... I drink, i club, i hang out, i invited my frens to hv that 'you-kno-wat-izit-session' in my room. Ended up, i get drunk, i messed and dirty my room. For those who visited my room, they can see my eye shadows left opened, 'loitering' in my room; my champagne glass left unwashed on the floor, with Gold Label smell lingers on it; shopping bags thrown all around on the floor; my hasmter feizai gets slimmer, and i hope ppl will thinks that feizai went Marie France.

as i mentioned earlier, i cleaned my room. This is the effect of being 'motivated' by someone who gets me so damn pissed off and i decided to set myself free.

So, i found a way to let go the 'stim' in my body. Went Shogun Japanese Buffet and stuffed myself wit lotsa lotsa food, and i found it works! Of cz i dont afraid of weight gain. =D *Giggles*

so here's the food

Eventually i figure out something...

Gals, here's a tips for u:

If you are pissed, jz try to go for buffet and stuff yourself wit lotsa food until you feel like throw out

and if ur admirer or ur bf makes u pissed off, you may try that too, but add on wit dating your ex-bf out   *great idea rite?hehe*

Im actually feeling quite contented wit my life now, even thou it sounds to be a bit 'lap sap'. 

I work from monday til friday, and durin weekend i go for Dota game, club and yum cha. But im happy enuff that thr's still ppl around accompanying me. I have Terry Fong who brings me go Dota, and he is really a nice man, but married and not available anymore. Haha... And of cz Roy who goes yum cha, lunch and dinner wit me until we being misunderstand by our colleagues dat we are having some kind of office affair. LOL

p/s: Im not having any office affair la wei~!!!!!

Monday, October 27, 2008

Ur call

Happy happy joy joy~~!!!

Someone called and enlighten me! love love~~

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

A post which she don't mean to direct to anyone

somehow, she thought that everything will be fine and dandy

but here she goes...typing away on the keyboard and start blogging

which means....

She's in DEEP SHIT again

a lil thing he does, it melts her heart

a lil thing he does, might also turns her world upside down

and here she goes being sensitive, wishing someone would offer a lil reassurance. Having no idea whether she's really being sensitive, or there's some other reasons behind it that makes her feels so unsecure.

and as day goes by, it's taking her energy and her patience is running out, but she's still living in misery. She thinks 'this is not what it suppose to be!'

Do not lecture her to face the reality, cause she's tired of this fucked up life

Do not lecture her to escape from the reality, cause she's been running too much away from it

Do give her some reassurance, cause she really needs it

Monday, October 20, 2008

Another screwed up party!

so i screwed up another party last nite...LOL

went to Quattro last nite. It's a new club located at Avenue K. I was so drunk that i vomit in the club and ppl busy taking care of me while thr's one man trying to take advantage on me. Christine got into fight with this man who tried to 'take care' of me.

so Shaun called me n found that i was so drunk. He drove to Avenue K and picked me up. Of cz, at 1st my frens were worrying whether they can trust him anot, and start questioning him in order to make sure that he is not one of those perverts. But im very very sure dat i can trust him. 

a man carried me out from the club to the bus stop. I was really drunk and never been so drunk before, that i cant even stand straight, or even hv the strength to answer phone calls. Shaun carried me into his car, and placed me on the back seat. I was 100 over kgs to him when im drunk.Haha.My skirt was wet as ppl accidentally poured drinks on it, and the worse part is that Shaun was wondering why izit my skirt was wet. He asked Christine whether my skirt has been poured water on it and she told him NO. Worst thing, when i went dinner wit Shaun jz now, he asked me whether did i peed on my skirt. =.=" wtf is dat...

I was a big monkey in the car, climbing from the back seat to the front, disturbing Shaun while he's driving and shouting yelling and bitting ppl like a mad girl. I woke up at 9a.m. today morning and bath myself, as i cant stand to leave the smell of alcohol lingering on me.

I never plan to screw the party, all i was thinkin was that i jz wanna hv a break and chill after so much things happened in this short period. And this is wat it became in the end...I swear, i have never been so drunk before!LOL

So this is my 1st clubbing experience at Quattro.It's so damn screw right?

p/s: sorry Silva, i screwed the whole clubbing nite. Thx for the people who takes care of me, especially Christine. And also Shaun Lo, i kno i always bug u when u're about to slp. I think i dont need to say much here, as u ady kno how i feel right?LOL

Sunday, October 19, 2008

How can i sustain this??

and i tot everything will be alrite when im staying in PJ.
but
I was so damn wrong!

Few hours ago, i was still fine. The whole outing was able to drive my fears and problems on my mind away and i was as a lil bit cheer up.

But now, loneliness and emo-ness takes me on a ride.

So much had happened in this short period of time. How i wish someone can just come and take me away from all these. (and if i could be a lil bit selfish, there's someone who can) How i wish i can jz let everything go.

Been few nites, i slp with the bottle of alcohol besides me. That's only how i can slp... Every single nite i tried to close my eyes on all the things happened, i jz cant, cant stop thinkin bout it.
And now,I am a very confused girl. There are times when i found that things that i tot i wanted is actually not i want. Im getting even more confuse at this point of time. Lotsa different thoughts going round and round on my mind. I don't kno wat i want actually, and it hurts ppl around who cares for me. I jz hope that i can do the right thing.

I have to admit, im not strong, at all. I need someone to comfort me, and tells me not to be afraid.

And i hope i'll do the right thing. For the sake of everyone...

Sunday, October 5, 2008