Fake it or show your ugly truth

Have you ever wonder are you the person who you suppose to be?
Or you might realize that you're just someone who you want to be?
This is something which is highly questionable!

Speaking of this, we might find lotsa excuses for ourselves. Sometimes I question myself, why can't I just be myself, why can't I say yes to simplicity instead of trying to match with others' pace?
At some point of time, I don't know who I really am. All I know is I have to strive to be a tougher bitch in order to get the things I want, and also so that people will stereotype you as a perfect person.
I hide my weaknesses. Or at some point of time, I tried to cover it by ranting about what I'm proud of myself.
I am really a demanding person, seriously demanding. Though at some point of time I feel that I don't deserve such good things. And it's human nature to find ways to alleviate all the shits that hinder their paths. It ended sometimes that I got screwed up by the stupid ideas which I thought that they were splendid one.

Have you ever realize how tiring it is in faking yourself?
I realized it.
And I'm glad, at least I can still take off the mask and be the 100% me in front when confronting some people in my life. I realized how nice and comfortable it is to be myself again.

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Lead me to the right way, please?

Alright... it has come to this. I've been away from blogspot for too long.

And I've been having misty mind for the past few days...
There are times when we need to make very tough decisions. And every decisions we made we'll afraid if a wrong one is being made. Sometimes we need to sacrifice, even if we are so unwilling to let go. But for the sake of everyone, we hope that we'll always do the right thing.

Doing so is not so that you'll stereotype me as a better person, but it's just that I feel guilty and I don't think this is the right thing to do.

I know God will always take good care of me, and make sure I take the right steps. =)

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Being stupid again

I thought you put me in rapture for the past few months

but now I realize how silly I was...

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Serious diet, for the very 1st time

I've been busier than a bee lately. Lotsa assignments coming up, and very very soon it will be my finals. 

I went to club with my babes last week, ever since we have not meet up for 3 weeks and now she's back in KL. The first thing she said to me when she sees me...

'Hey!Since when you become so big size 1 huh?'

I was shocked! It hurts!

In fact i did noticed dat, I noticed dat my arms grow bigger than before. It's just that i never tot that it will be this bad. I told myself I’m going to lose this weight and keep it off this time. It's really tough for people like me to go on diet. Lack of determination. 

Looking at Ramlee burgers, MCDonald's fried chicken, and all others yummy yummy food, I told myself to get a bottle of water and forget bout the food. It's torturing!

Some men starts making fun of my arms. You know, men being men. Their preferences will never change. Tall and slim women dat's what they called hot. Women like me, big arms, big tummy, elephant laps, small boobs and small arse is totally contrary with the word 'hot'. Pathetic rite?

Gaining weight really makes a woman gets upset =(

Readers, wish me luck.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Rainbow after rain

Someone thought i cancel off my blog account, ever since i change my blog's URL.

I'm surprise.

To found out he actually view my blog.

I got the answers, for the biggest question that I've been wondering, bout him.

I'm feeling contented. And glad.

Things are not as bad as I thought.

I'm glad that he is able to think and act based on accordance with logic and reasons.

He stopped my head first action.

I'm now off from vindication. =)

Monday, July 13, 2009